COMING FULL CIRCLE. NOTHING IN GODS WORLD IS PRIVATE

in the past two years, ive seen many of my prayers which were put out there years ago concerning my sister finally starting to take fruit.seeds were indeed planted but i know now that the time had not yet come for them to blossom. the answer as to why finally and very suddenly came to me this past wednesday as anna had us share during home fellowship over at lynns teatimonies of how God has answered prayers involving our families. i remembered what pastor gary said som weeks back SIN AFFECTS EVERYONE AROUND YOU....EVEN WHEN ITS DONE IN PRIVATE. something happens in the spiritual realm concerning those around you when your own heart isnt right with God even if they dont see what youre doing. its like the seed that gets dropped and the birds eat it. the reason why years ago my sister didnt recieve what i was saying was for the very same reason that virtually everyone in my church shunned me though i was far too reprobate to see it at the time. i still hadnt lost enough to come out of that denial. THE CHILDREN OF UNRIGHTEOUSNESS ARE OFTEN SMARTER CONCERNING THEIR OWN THAN WE ARE. it was like YOU CANT HUSTLE A HUSTLER HONEY. deep in my heart i knew i wasnt being "mistreated"...they simply were onto me. they knew a liar when they saw one. however likewith my sister they may not even realize why they dont hear you..theres simply something in the spiritual realm thats "off" and they can feel it.
my life islike a gateway into the lives of others and what i do can either be a witness or cause others to stumble even when they dont see what im doing. its no coincidence that a nations leaders are like gateways into the lives of the people of their country. i remember hearing bob yandian talking about what clinton was doing in his private life and how at that time the country was rife with sexual sin. there isno such a thing as victimless crime and sin that doesnt affect tothers. period

IN THE WORLD BUT NOT OF IT vs OF THE WORLD BUT NOT IN IT

as i have been studying the Gospels and saw how frequently Jesus butted heads with the pharisees whose deviousness and underhandedness......... plus the sly cattiness not so different from what one would find in your hen circle, do-goody charity type of women..which seems to be a mindset in ALL people whose place their sense of significance in their own goodness and others no goodness...a couple of things came back to my remembrance. i remember what pastor gary was talking about how its impossible to change the world when youre the same substance as the world. i also remember listening to an excerpt from an aussie lady preacher by the name of christine caine when she pointed out tre difference between BEING IN THE WORLD but not OF IT and BEING OF THE WORLD but not IN IT. i saw how they were constantly trying to trap Jesus. for example any fool who knew anything about OT law could take one look at the situation of the woman caught in the act of adultery and be able to tell that the pharisees had set her up simply as a way of trying to catch Jesus contradicting the law..even though He made it very clear he came NOT to destroy the law but to fulfill it. why do i think it was a trick bag?
because in the OT both the man and the woman caught in the act of adultery was subject to being stoned. plus look at when barrabas and Jesus was presented by pilate before the masses.
it was the pharisees and scribes who whipped the people into a frenzy to hav Him crucified. during His trial they out and out lied in their testimony against HIm repeatedly. after His resurrection they bribed the soldiers to lie and say His disciples came and stole His body even though moving that stone with a hundred men was impossible and when Jesus spoke when He taught in the synagogues He SPOKE AS ONE WITH AUTHORITY and NOT AS THE PHARISEES. even thought Jesus WAS God He STILL was speaking from the point of His HUMANITY to say WIHTOUT GOD WE ARE NOTHING!!!!!

the mindset of these men went far beyond the evidence of their hypocritical natures..in that even thought they turned their nose up at the common folk even the soldiers whom they spit on to do their dirty work for them. the very core of the duplicity in their characters was that they confused being SEPARATIST with HOLINESS!!!! they thought that by COMING OUT OF THE WORLD it somehow made them BETTER THAN THE WORLD. so they shunned the world around them forgetting about what all the types and shadows really meant which pointed to the one who came for the very world they rejected. the problem was that all the pettiness all the cattiness all the dishonesty and manipulation which is so integral in our fallen natures they took right along with them. all the backbiting the gossip NOTHING HAD CHANGED.!!!!! and they say that women in your sorority type of setting are catty backbiting blackballing and vicious???!!!! OH PLEASE!!!! rather than remaining IN THE WORLD and being salt and light IN THE WORLD they came OUT OF THE WORLD but kept all its nastiness!!! of course no one saw any real authority in them. they were all about giving themselves attaboys AND SNUBBING THE WORLD AROUND THEM but God wasnt tin the midst of any of it.

i see now why Jesus so went after them while displaying the love and mercy of God to the tax collectors the prostitutes. true these werent people that society would exactly look up to but you knewwhere you stood with them. but THESE MEN?? you couldnt trust as far as you could throw them the most dangerous lie is when we lie to ourselves. but i also have to remember as blind as these men were He also loved them and died for them too

zaccheus

id been meaning to get around to blogging this for a couple of weeks now so here goes. i remember a couple of sundays ago when pastor gary was talking about zaccheus, the chief tax collector whom nobody liked and was so short that he had to climb up the tree to see Jesus. as i was listening to pastor gary speak, god really opened up my heart as to how there was nothing that Jesus spoke of and nobody that He encountered that we dont come across today i saw hoe Jesus looked beyond the outside and ministered to the inside man behind the outer actions.
a couple of things really stood out...the fact that zaccheus WAS so short and that he was in a position to rob his people. i see someone who all his life was probably what we would call today a geek...smarter than the average bear, sort of an oddball, probably someone who got made fun of, the kid whom the neighborhood bullies probably took his lunch money, got beat up on more than one occasion. but he was smart. go figure they didnt pick dummies to be auditors and tax collectors. we see this alot today..kids who have a miserable childhood because people just dont like them very much who later in life get put in positions of power and authority that give them a chance to get their own back, where everything they do when they rob step on and fleece other is like saying HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW!!! im pretty sure if you try to establish a sense of loyalty to zaccheus"s people his response to you would have been LOYALTY??? TO MY
PEOPLE?? WHY??WHAT DID MY OWN PEOPLE EVER DO FOR ME?? i think he thought that by being in a position of power wealth and authority would somehow banish that frightened kid who just was trying to get thru another day without being hungry because his lunch money got stolen without getting beat up without being called a nerd and a geek too afraid to tell anyone knowing it would made it worse for him. that finally being able to get even with his tormentors would silence that deep need just to be loved accepted for who he was to have friends. but it never did. that frightened little boy was who was climbing up that tree to see Jesus because he knew that deep emptiness inside of him hadnt been and never would be filled by any of that. thats all of us who are lost..that frightened kid who never ever healed. some of us were able to let Him in behind the mask because we saw He WAS the one who COULD heal us.
many of us however never do.

zaccheus being willing to give half his goods to the poor and restore manyfold what he had stolen came from that place that matthew 6:14-15 talks about..in order to recieve forgiveness from God he first had to be willing to forgive those who had wronged him. and forgive himself