MOMMY: WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!

now, back to my doggie. over the holidays, especially the past five days ive had off, i got some special cuddle time in with my doggie, early in the mornings (and no one can tell me he didnt
know his mommy was home), when, as early as 4:30 in the morning, he d wake me up with his pathetic, mommy, mommy, WHY ARE YOU IGNORING ME??? wails. and the end to that is his daddy coming into the tv room an hour or so later, to see mommy and the boy, in the recliner, the boy fast asleep in mommys lap, blanket pulled up around him with just his head snuggled on mommys shoulder poking out. ALL THIS, AS ITS BACK TO THE GRIND AS USUAL, FOR DADDY, which im sure is much to daddys dismay as HE gets woke up in the morning, trying to get ready for work, and samson NOW expecting to get the same cuddle treatment hed gotten from mommy over the past week, NOW throwing a fit because mommy isnt there at 4:30-5 am to give it to him.

samson doesnt understand the times, when mommy isnt there, to snuggle and hold him, all wrapped up in the blankey, that it doesnt mean....just because he doesnt feel and smell mommy,
.........that i love him any less, and that im not STILL taking care of him. hes just a baby. hes got that visual and emotional tracking thing going on that most babies have. he sees mommy, he feels mommy holding him, and rocking him to sleep, all snuggled in his favorite blankey, MOMMYS HERE, MOMMY LOVES ME!!!!! but...mommy cant always be holding him. mommy has to work, and do other things. but, like all babies he doesnt understand that. when mommy puts him back in his cage,( and its been cold lately) and hes by himself, hes
thinking, MOMMY, MOMMY, WHERE ARE YOU?? YOURE NOT HERE ANYMORE. WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME ANYMORE????? he doesnt understand, that, just because he doesnt SEE or FEEL me, or is aware of my presence, that im not still there for him, that i dont still love him.

theres time, like, for example in praise and worship, that i feel alot like samson,, all snuggled up to his mommy, under his favorite blankey. of course that that moment, his child-puppy mind KNOWS his mommy loves him, he can FEEL his mommy cuddling him. as he grows older, he
will start to understand she loves him even when he DOESNT feel her holding him, or even when he doesnt see her. in praise and worship, i can FEEL Gods presence. but i cant STAY in the realm of the warm fuzzies. it gets cold and lonely out there in that world. but His WORD
tells me,even when i dont "FEEL" HIM. He will never, ever stop loving me, or leave me Jesus went thru that separation from Him, so, once we accept what He did for us, so WELL never have to. out there in that wilderness, when God is leading us thru a trial to build our characterits hard to not go by what our FEELINGS tell us..."HE AINT THERE" GROWING
UP is belieiving what HIS WORD says, even when its cold out there